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The biggest loser also has another side, another meaning. The signal is a big L in sign language on my forehead. Looosser!!! Its negative, its a put down, its a bad word.
As a follower of Jesus, many times during the day, I feel like both kinds of loser.
Kari = Biggest Loser
Days where I accomplish ALL my goals with energy, spunk & determination. Nothing can stop me. Give me any challenge or task & I'll give 110% I made the best dinner, no complaining about piles of laundry, energy to scrub & cuddle up with H to read.
Days where I fail. I lose. I set goals, but they don't happen. I feel like I've accomplished nothing. No energy, no spunk & a lack of determination. Naaaagging kids about unfinished chores, homework or dirty dishes. No 2 course meal, romance or time to take a shower.
I start beating myself up emotionally.....girl, you are the biggest loser!!!
Today, I feel like the big L. My energy is zapped (Zoie has the flu) and I'm just not at my game.
I am humbled. I believe and understand that without the grace God pours over me daily....I really am a big loser. Every day I wake up, I have choices to make. Every day is a renewal of my faith in Him. If I try to do things MY way, I lose. When I give my worries, fears, insecurities, failures, disappointments to God....He gives me His strength, His energy, His unfailing love.
Today, instead of *beating* myself up with negative thoughts, I want to focus my mind and heart to lean on Him.
My soul is downcast within me. Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have *hope* Because of Your great love I am not consumed, for Your compassions never fail. They are new every morning. Great is Your faithfulness! (Lamentations 3: 20-22)
Today I am the Biggest Loser! I win, because He wins!!
xoxo
(look whats out my front door...happy spring!!)
Thank you so much, Kari. God knew I needed to read this post today!
ReplyDeleteI've followed your blog for a while now, but don't think I have introduced myself. You have a beautiful family and Zoie is amazing!
The judge in ET should be hearing our case tonight while we sleep, so prayers are much appreciated!
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Mary, we will pray fervently that God hears your case & you pass #1st time. We had a little court drama, so I want to encourage you... God will not allow your precious child to stay in Ethiopia a second longer than He has planned. Rest tonight & do something for yourself to keep those crazyyyy butterlies calm:)))
ReplyDeletePlease let me know how things go!!
xoxo